Fear, Danger, Lonelinesss (Dies's Writings)

[Dies Irae]

Fear,Danger,Loneliness

This is a story I wrote up with a spontaneous thought.
The story follows Winter, a 19 year old girl living in a world destroyed by a zombie apocalypse, cause via mutated vaccine.
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Chapter I
Welcome To My Hell

Journal Entry #1

Running, I seem to be doing a lot of that lately, perhaps it's running away from my problems in my mind, or physically running from the things chasing me. I lost track of what I was running from a long time ago, though now I'm drained of my energy I still have to run, my mind is weakening and my body just doesn't have the will to go on. This is my life now, constant fear, constant danger and constant loneliness. What I wouldn't give to just be able to rest, to have even a minutes sleep without waking to the slightest of sounds, but when you live in my world its the way things are ever since the day it all started. I guess I should explain why I'm like this but I doubt it would sound believable even to the most insane person. In my life I'm running, hiding and just generally keeping myself from sight, if I didn't then I'd be some poor bastard's chew toy, the world I live in isn't like the one we used to have, we all had to change and adapt to the outbreak of that blasted virus, the first few days we're trying to understand, the next few weeks we just wanted to hide from it, now we just try to survive. The living dead would be a more elegant way to say what they are, but fuck it, I'm not fancy in the slightest. Zombies, you heard me fucking brain munching, bone chewing zombies, what started it, a mutated vaccine that was suppose to cure cancer, guess the big brained scientists with all their free money couldn't figure out how to contain it. So instead of it passing over as another failure, it worked, oh yeah it worked wonders on curing cancer, solved a lot of other problems to, world hunger, war, poverty cured all that, wasn't a pretty cure or anything but turning most of the population into mindless flesh eaters did cure cancer by killing a sizable chunk of humans on the planet so that was a plus, the only negative thing about it is we have to deal with the fuckers on a daily basis.

So that's the gist of it, understand, zombies, oh and that's not all, seems us humans just can't get out of our normal instincts, greed oh yes we have that by the bucket full what else oh yeah insanity that's one to, ever been lured into a house by a sweet little girl and her living parents when your running from a group of undead bastards, probably not I'm guessing, well I have, cheery bunch of people till they tried to feed me to their zombified grandfather, some people just have a hard time letting go, least I got out of their in one piece, besides losing my shoes but I can find new shoes if I ever come past a store while I'm trying to find some food. We do have colonies, those are just asking to be slaughtered, money still comes around in those, pay to live is their little game and if you can't pay well then you end up like me, out in the world alone, but I choose this, better to be on your own than with a big group of idiots making a ruckus all the time. Though one thing I miss, the one thing I miss is fucking smokes, I mean I deserve one, and I have yet to find a single carton, packet or even just one on its own. It's a bad habit I know, but it's a nice luxury once in a while after running from these damned things all day. But what do I care, I'll find one, next store I go to will probably have some, though its a lose win situation, most stores and houses are usually hiding one of those walking corpses all the time.

Now I think introductions are in order here, though I have no idea why the hell I'm telling this to a piece of paper, My name, yeah I just go by Winter, guess I picked it because I'm so cold to people, not that its my fault, con artist, tricksters and all that can't trust anyone, if someone looks like they are going to back stab you, well a bullet to the brain works and then maybe a decapitation to make sure they don't come back, not like police or lawmen are going to do anything anyway. So that's all you need to know, unless I run into you but I wouldn't linger I'm not sociable in the least so if you see me, then just fuck off in the opposite direction because frankly I don't need people I can look out for myself and I don't need anyone holding me down especially when those zombies are around, I don't find having my belly torn open and my guts being eaten while I watch before I die a fun evening alright. So if you ever see a girl with ice blue hair and blue eyes coming your way I suggest you just turn on your heels and run, unless you want a bullet between your eyes.

Hugs and Kisses
Winter
Date: Fucked if I know.

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Rain doesn't happen often anymore, it's sort of sweet and yet scary at the same time, catch your death outside in the cold or be eaten alive finding shelter, least it wasn't hailing and hey it made for a decent shower, I couldn't remember the last time I had showered actually. Dried blood and sweat was a common thing on me, though usually it wasn't my own blood, I killed a few of those brain munchers a while ago and that left some splatter on me but it was washed off thankfully. But I couldn't stay out here not for long anyway I didn't need a cold to go along with the zombie threat I always had. So I found shelter in a supermarket, it was quite large which was good and the power was on generators so it was a dim light. I could see but it wasn't anything that would make it a good proving ground for the corpses wandering about. Dripping wet and dead tired I wandered inside, I kept my shotgun ready though I wasn't terribly excited to use it right then. Slinking around the aisles I found some food, a packet of chips, it was the best thing I had eaten for a week but for a moment I had to be careful you know when you want to be quite everything makes more noise, well what do you think a packet of chips would do. Luckily I did think of that so cutting them open with a pair of scissors was the best idea to come to mind. Continuing my exploratory search around the store I did manage to find the scissors, stationery aisle was the obvious place to go, so I cut them open and quietly ate my miniature feast in peace. Till i heard the door open at least, then I don't know why but I just laid down, kind of mimicking the prone position army personnel use well I think that's what they called it, been a few years since I talked to my cousin in the military doubtful he's even alive anymore.

So anyway from my little area in the stationery aisle of all places I watched, saw the person who came in, looked like a guy I couldn't really tell but he was tall, so he wandered about anyway, though with recent events I have lost my ability to tell humans from zombies, something with those zombies just seemed to change I mean, I saw a girl running from them and they just sprinted, but it was faster than that like a leopard or lion after its gazelle, so I just don't know anymore. But this guy was looking through things and all that but still I wasn't about to stand up and yell out, I knew better than that, not a wise move to call out your location to the mindless ones out there, unless you had a death wish, so I kinda crawled my way to the cigarette counter and when it was clear just hopped behind it, was a stupid thing to not check for a zombie first but thankfully it was empty apart from me. From my hiding spot I waited, I could hear him going about the aisles slowly, though I felt my heart pounding and i started sweating i didn't make a peep at all until i heard him speak.

"Whoever's in here, come out now" he said.

I felt strange, I knew he was human now, but from the sprinting zombies I was still in my don't move mentality I mean what if they developed speech now, that would make for the ultimate hell, the only thing we used to differ from zombies was speech so that was a thought we would never want to cross our mind. Sadly it just did mine and I was freaking out from behind that counter. Though it wasn't long before i heard the tell tale signs of the groups outside approaching, the shuffling, the groans and moans of their little intricate language. Suddenly I heard him move and then they came in, I sort of guessed this guy hadn't been out long since when they did come in he made a big mistake in trying to hide from them, The rules I had were simple, don't move, don't speak and don't do anything stupid, well he went the whole nine yards and broke all of my rules while I stayed still. First he ran to the back door and it was locked of course, when you have undead zombies on your ass, luck seems to love fucking you over, so then he broke the second rule with the ever so graceful phrase "Fuck me sideways" then he proceeded to find the best weapon available, If you've ever looked for a weapon in a supermarket, you'd know the choice comes down to a trolley, a basket or a plastic bat from the toys aisle. So it wasn't to long before he went with the trolley, I bet it was fun for a good minute before he tripped on something, that's another thing, never fails when your fighting for your life, you will always fall over, no matter what it just happens.

After he fell and all hell rained down upon him, I officially became a member of the scared out of your fucking mind club™, i still haven't gotten the welcoming gift basket which is depressing, but it was horrible, the screaming and yelling, I could hear his skin ripping and his bones breaking as they ate him alive, I peaked over once and what I saw was going to stick with me forever, He had his arm chewed off, his chest and stomach were in ribbons and his head had actually fallen off from them eating his neck. I slunk back behind the counter after that, and it lasted a long time, I was fearing for my life, they shuffled around the aisles looking for more food when they were done with him, then one came to the counter, I almost cried just hiding under it, I couldn't move or do anything. From my peak i had counted five or so, I had a double barrel shotgun, so I could get two of them before i needed to reload, well maybe if they stood in a line or something but that was a stupid idea. They left thankfully, after awhile lucky for me the blood from the zombies I had killed hadn't washed away completely and covered my scent enough. They left slowly shambling out of the supermarket like nothing had happened looking for their next meal. Me on the other hand well I was in a less than fine condition.

After they left and I was alone in that market, I peaked over the counter again, coast was clear but my eyes did travel across the deceased man who had just been eaten, what happened next I wasn't proud of, I doubt anyone would be. I puked, a lot, everything I had eaten over the last few days was now in a puddle in front of me, Hell I felt like I wouldn't be able to stop if you had seen him, you would have to. Emptying my stomach contents onto the floor of the supermarket made me very weak and after all that commotion I was in no mood to leave my safe area. By some miracle I did happen to find a intact carton of smokes though, Superking Reds to, what luck the carton I found was my favorite brand as well. In my little corner, away from the corpse of the foolish man i enjoyed my first smoke since the outbreak and my god it was delicious, though I felt like having the carton after the event that just happened I stuck with one, both because i wanted them for a long time to come and because after I finished it, combining the tobacco the empty stomach and the excessive tiredness I was feeling I passed out, under the counter I was safe at least so my much needed and forced sleep was safe at least until the next howl of terror crossed through my ears and woke me up to face my hellish life once again.

[Dies Irae]

Wedding Night;
this is a wedding night (sex) enjoy!

Wedding bells fresh in her mind as Syra was carried by her new husband into their hotel room, the wedding was simple, family and close friends but it didn't matter to them, their rings shining in the light of the hallway symbolizing their new bond for their lives, to love and hold, for better or for worse. The door pushed open as small squeak of the hinges as it came to a stop, Her husband Anders, a lovely young man who cared for her and loved her even after all the things she'd done. He laid her gently on the bed, the soft silk sheets creasing and flattening as her back laid against them. She blushed deeply, her cheeks glowing red as she whispered a soft 'I love you'. She watched him, his well built body slowly revealing itself as he undressed, his tuxedo jacket falling to the floor, the broken necklace reading 'Syra Together' swinging on his neck as he climbed onto her placing a gentle kiss upon her lips. She placed her hands upon his cheeks kissing him back a passionate, loving kiss the first since the pastor pronounced them. Her lips shining red, the lipstick her maids had chosen for her, a small mark of it rubbing off onto his lips as she pulled away.

She slowly slid the garter from her leg, flicking at him playfully, she knew he liked it, the way she could act young but still keep an elegant finesse about her, she laid her head upon the frilled pillows, the candle on the bedside table the shining light in the room as he closed the door, swinging on the outside knob a small sign, reading 'Do Not Disturb'. He laid next to her, a small kiss upon her glowing cheek as he ran a finger along her neck, tracing down the dress she wore, running along the curves of her body. He was always so intimate, even more so now that their wedding night was upon them. The silk rustled under her as she shook, a tingling running through her making her shiver as he slowly unbuttoned his shirt. She was entranced in the night just he and her, Two lovers enjoying their romantic evening. A night they would never forget as she ran a finger along his chest, running down to the belt of his pants, slipping into the belt, curling around it as she pulled him into her, kissing him, harder now, more passionate and loving as she slowly slid her tongue into his mouth, dancing with his as they wrapped their arms around each other and his fingers reached the zip of her dress, sliding it down slowly revealing her arching back, A soft giggle escaped her as he tugged at the dress until finally it came off her. He took a moment, taking in every part of his new wife as she laid on the bed in front of him. She was blushing her cheeks glowing deeper red as she laid their his eyes running along her body, her white bra and panties, her white stockings and garter belt holding them up, a matching set she'd gotten just for this night, the white rose nestled in her hair and her own half necklace reading '& Anders Forever' laying between her breasts. She let a moan escape her as his fingers ran along her thigh slowly making their way past her underwear and stomach, up between her cleavage and to her neck. He was never in a rush to finish, always taking the time to make her feel special.

He lent in close, she could feel his soft breathes upon her neck as he kissed down from her lips to her shoulder and back up, his lips resting upon her neck beginning to suck at the skin. The mark of love he placed on her neck, purple as the blood rose to show, she loved when he left it upon her, a sign that he was always there. Her thought broke away as she felt his hand gently cup one of her breasts through the bra, massaging it softly a finger tracing around the edge as if he was painting a picture upon her. Soon after he ran his hands behind her, undoing her bra and slowly removing it, taking in her chest as he pulled it away and the air washed upon her chest, warm and yet cold as well. She covered them nervously, a hidden reaction she could never break, She smiled at him as he let out a small laugh, whispering he would be gentle and soft to her as he moved her hands away. A small moan she was unable to hold in as he lent close, his soft tongue brushing along her breast and over her nipple. The small red bump on her breast poking out as he teased her. She felt his other hand run up to her other breast cupping it softly and massaging it slowly, Tenderly and lovingly he moved along placing gentle kisses upon her chest as he came to the breast he was holding, moving his hand and repeating his soft licks this time placing his mouth over her hardening nipple and beginning to suck upon it. His hands drawing loving circles upon the side of her chest, a sensitive place for her, he knew she would melt when he touched it but she didn't.

She moaned softly, innocent and cutely for him, her chest tingling sending shivers throughout her as he teased her, his hands running down her chest, along her stomach resting at the hem of her panties, pulling them and letting them flick against her playfully, she made a small squeak but he laughed and kissed her as his moved his hand underneath them and rubbed softly against her clit, her sensitive spot swelling in pleasure only making it easier for him to tease her further. His fingers gently drawing circles on her spot, making her pussy slowly start to glisten as her juices began to flow, She moaned louder, her fingers curling around the sheet as she arched her back as he teased her but also pleasing her. His hands stopped rubbing her, moving back out, he put a finger to her lips as if to say she was being to loud, she knew he was being playful, he always loved her moans of love. She closed her eyes as he pulled her panties down the soft lingerie resting against the top her stockings, he took a small moment, his eyes taking in her legs, her pussy as it glistened in the candle light. He moved his fingers, he slid them slowly along her inner thighs teasing her as he moved them to her pussy, parting the lips and rubbing the outside softly before sliding two inside, she was warm and wet like always, he fought the urge to take her right then as she was and pushed his fingers in and out, her juices trickling along his fingers leaving a path of her love upon them as she started to get wetter, His member getting hard now as he watched her bodies reaction to him, he placed a third finger at her entrance, teasing her as he slid it in with the others and moved it with them, he explored her insides with his touch, feeling everything he could inside her as she let out soft and hard moans alike.

He moved between her legs, his last act before it was her turn to give him her own pleasing touch, She gripped the sheets tighter, his kisses along her thighs gentle and soft as he slowly approached her pussy with his mouth, licking the outer lips softly, taking in her sweet taste as he did, running his tongue along her making his way to her clit rubbing the tip of his tongue around it, making her melt even more as he put his lips upon it a sucked softly, she moaned louder and louder, her breathes coming hard as he made her reach before they even begun, her loud moan escaping her as her pussy released her juices upon the bed, She looked at him a little embarrassed, she had never reached her orgasm during foreplay before, he had made a mental trophy placing it upon his minds mantle as he continued, pushing his tongue inside her now, licking inside her, her warm and wet pussy feeling his tongue moving inside, stimulating every nerve she had and making her moans escape again. He pulled away pleased with himself as he took in his bride, moaning loudly, her legs closed, her knees touching together reminding him of a hentai girl about to be taken forcefully, he shook the though, no this wasn't the time, now she was just his bride, filled with pleasure and love for him, the thought was one he dreamed of for the longest time, a thought now a reality and nothing made him happier.

He laid next to her whispering playful words in her ear as she recovered from his touch, She looked into his eyes, nodding slowly and giving him a smile as she sat up and he took her place laying down, She lent close to him before she would begin pleasuring him she had a task, kissing his lips first and running the kisses, little gentle ones down his neck and resting on it as she began to suck her experienced lips pulling the blood to surface, the glowing purple mark would stay for a long time, He didn;t mind this time, he would usually protest her love bites when he had to work, but for this night and until it faded he would wear it proudly, the girl he would treasure forever, a wife that would be envied by his friends, he was the happiest he had ever been he had finally capture the girl of his dreams. She kissed down his chest, nipping softly as she did, coming to a stop at the beginning of his pants. She smiled as she undid the belt slowly making sure to be gentle as she slid the long strap of leather away, resting it upon the floor as she slowly removed his pants, looking up at him as he smiled, she was so serious when she made love, but yet she had a child like wonderment about her as well. He always wondered how she managed it, a quirk in her personality maybe but she would never tell him and he was glad, a secret he had to ponder about kept his mind on something when he was bored. She returned after removing his pants, his white boxer shorts the only thing left on him as she slowly ran a hand along his leg, resting it upon his hardening bulge. Sliding his member from his boxers, taking it in as she ran her fingers along it, a small twitch made her giggle as she put her hand around it and moved it up and down slowly, getting faster as he got harder, she kept her eyes on him aiting for the small sign his reactions gave her, when his breathing got harder she smiled and moved, going between his legs on all fours facing him, she put her hand up to her cheek, curling it and looking up at him playfully letting out a cute innocent "Mew".

She giggled at him, he didn't expect her to be so playful, but he smiled as she did, the childlike playfulness made his heart smile, giving him the happiness that would never leave him, She looked at him, smiling as she lent close to his member, flicking the tip with her tongue, licking it softly as she closed her eyes, He watched her a blush appearing even on his cheeks as he looked at her, Her stockings showing a small dark spot from where he juices ran down her legs, her panties halfway down her thighs, her pussy wetter than he had ever made it and her breasts bouncing as she moved, her nipples hard as rocks from his playful sucking and licking, The view he had and as he looked at the smaller details almost made him erupt before she had finished but he held it back, a skill he developed with her, his lust wouldn't accept having her for even an hour, he had to have her longer. She smiled at him, putting her lips on his tip and parting them slowly, sliding his member inside her mouth and sucking the tip for a moment. He held the sheets, it was to much now, her sexiness and innocence she managed to pull off combined with her skillfulness in foreplay and the added fact it was their wedding night made him erupt, his orgasm pushing his load into her mouth, She blushed loudly, she wasn't expecting it but she didn't stop, swallowing his seed and continuing to suck him, he was breathing harder, but he was in awe of her, he had came in her mouth but it didn't stop her, he had definitely married the perfect girl. She smiled as she finished, wiping her mouth as she looked at him, crawling onto his lap, her legs at either side of his, she knew it was a favorite of his, when she did the work of sex for him, She lent close, laying her head on his chest as she positioned herself and his member at her entrance.

She smiled at him and he at her, He was now resiting the almost overpower urge, to push her down himself but he let her have her fun, her teasing was making his member throb in anticipation, She felt it brushing in its throbs against her, some of her wetness flicking off of her and landing gently on the sheets sinking into the fabric. She was done teasing, she craving it as much as he was as she lowered herself, with a soft but distinctive sound coming from her pussy as his tip pushed into her, their bodies connection being made as her juices ran down his member, He felt the juices trickle down him, holding in a moan as they did, His own beliefs of a man holding the moan back as she lowered herself down further, pushing his member completely inside, he felt her warm, wet pussy close around him, He put his arms around her, softly placing one upon her slender ass and one upon her side as she began to bounce upon him, His member pushing deep inside her as she lent close and kissed him, He thrust upwards in rhythm with her bounces, feeling her pussy tightening against him, he hadn't felt her this tight since they began doing this, though he knew the reason. They both made a promise to each other, a promise of chastity to make their wedding night the best night of their lives. One year he had waited for this night, she had suggested it, he protested but gave in when she made those puppy eyes of hers, how could he resist them. He realized she was right, it was worth it, her pussy tighter than ever before, he felt her squeeze against him, His member loved it, throbbing harder in excitement, he loved it to as her moans filled the room. She lent against him, moaning into his ear, she knew he loved hearing her moans, She smiled at him as she pulled him out.

Laying on her back she smiled up at him, He smiled back at her as she waved a finger, she knew he had wanted something, one thing she never allowed him. A picture of her laying like this, how she looked when they were making love, she looked up at him and reached for his phone he had left next to the candle and smiled handing it to him, he questioned her and she nodded, she wanted him to remember this forever. The click of the camera and he was above happiness. He came down on her putting her legs over his shoulders as he pushed himself back into her, Her moans once again filling the room, he watched as she put a finger to her lips, a cute attempt to stifle her moaning, it never worked but he loved when she did it, another playful act she did that made him love her. He thrust into her, slow gentle thrusts as he felt her warmth around his member, It felt better than normal, the night made it better, maybe he'd keep that dress for special occasions so he could remember the feeling. She closed her eyes as a loud moan escaped her, his member had found her spot, rubbing into it with every thrust, she made her signal a small rub against his leg with her finger, he had asked her to tell him whenever she found her spot, he smiled and began to thrust harder, her wetness beginning to flow more dripping from her pussy as he pushed into her spot, it didn't take her long to reach after that. He continued to push as he watched her orgasm a second time, he wouldn't stop until he released as well. He felt his member throb harder and harder, the warmth and tightness of her pussy bringing him closer to his climax. He closed his eyes, savoring the last few moments of her pussy before he had to leave, pulling out of her quickly, his member resting on her clit rubbing softly as he let his cum out on her stomach, his signature left on her skin as she moaned loudly. He breathed hard laying against the pillows, she wiped the cum off of her, smiling at him and collecting some on her finger, putting on a cute face and innocent pose she licked it off slowly, He looked at her and felt a small throb from his member as she made her own signature of their love. She laid on his chest and smiled at him, placing a passionate kiss upon his lips and closing her eyes. They held each other, moving to a more comfortable spot, he whispered to her 'I love you' and she smiled whispering back 'i love you to' and they fell asleep as the candle on the burned slowly, the necklaces they wore connecting as if their love forced them together perfectly.

The full inscription reading 'Syra & Anders Together Forever'.